Today I realised something. It’s nothing new it’s known by wise people for years now but I realised deeply today. How fake social media is. A few years ago there wasn’t Tiktok or Instagram or Twitter. We were all using Facebook but without the story function, just to message our friends or share what we feel or think. What I’m trying to say is our reactions or ‘sharing’ was not immediate. Now I started to hate that ‘story’ function. It happened to me as well it was like a flood, it dragged me in and I started to share wherever I go, whatever I eat, whoever I am with. After some time it just goes out of your control and you automatically start to share everything. Yesterday I was at the park and it was such a beautiful day. Sun was shining the brightest and the trees were the greenest. I locked my phone and started to look around. I was with my little brother who is 11 and addicted to Roblox and Minecraft. Thanks to God, his pc got broken and I took him to the park. We started to look around. He was jumping around and climbing the trees, then we found a very shallow river which had some rocks across it. He tried to step on those rocks and cross the river. We played with water, collected sticks... When we were near the water a family approached. The man which I assume was the father had a rope with him and he threw it on one of the branches of a tree close to water. They made a swing shortly and children started to swing on the water. It was so fun even to watch, everybody was laughing while watching him. After seconds everyone took their phones out of their pocket and started to film. Some of them were on Instagram, some were sharing it on Facebook. Only the boy was ‘really’ having fun. Others were too busy with putting some laughing emojis on their stories. We started to walk with my brother and on our way, he told me something. He said ‘I love nature now!’. I started to think ‘why now?’. The answer is so easy because he didn’t spend a single day without a mum/dad filming him while he is riding a bike or throwing stones to a lake. I really was there with him. Not through my screen, not through my camera. I was there, joining him, without worrying ‘oh wish my 256 followers could see us playing with water.’ Today I deleted all the apps from my phone and to be fair I feel like I’m sober now. I don’t care about what others are doing, eating, talking about.
I realised how upset it made me when I was depressed, trying to sleep but couldn’t, and watched my friends' stories when they are having fun at a party. You can see them like you are there, but you are not actually there. You are not having fun. You are lonely at that moment and want to be with them. But you are in different countries so you couldn't. What will you do then? You will go and live ‘your life in the best way you can. That’s what I will do from today.
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